I'm choking on tears and I don't know anymore what to say to him.
Please don't leave me.
No.. no.. please don't leave me to suffer this alone. Please don't.
I know I'm horrible I get it.
I deserve nothing more..
For what I say and do..
nothing more than this suffering
this pain.

Sobbing. The tears are endless. Why do I have to.. Why.. do I.. Have to.. be.. like this..